Late Night Ramblings

So, I have this funny little new habit of watching Netflix.com instant movies before bed when I don't have to be up early and they always lead to pondering.  I love a good movie that leads to some good pondering.   So, one thing I've never been good at in life is throwing things away.  I much prefer to reuse and re-purpose and usually this is a very good thing and not one that I intend to give up anytime soon.  But as I've not moved very many times in the span of my lifetime, I tend to accumulate a lot of crap.  All stuff that my artist mind sees potential in and a purpose for.  I have a very hard time letting go.
But (there's always a but isn't there?), Danny and I are on a mission to relinquish as much of our junk as possible before we move.  For several reasons:  One, it will probably cost nearly as much to move it all to Colorado as it would to purchase something fresh once we're there.  Two, we see this journey as a fresh start of sorts and bring along all of our physical baggage wouldn't so much be helpful.  Three, a purge every now and again is a good thing.  Four, living more plainly could only lead to good things.  Five, when Christ speaks of selling all you have and giving to the poor, he's not only speaking metaphorically.
This year Danny and I are on a mission to hand make as many of our Christmas presents for folks as we can, this is helping to clear some of our stores of 'useful' items.  I have also gotten Joey in on the act and she's been hand making her gifts to the family (with a little help from mom).
I would like to find a consignment shop that will take my handmade fairs off of my hands, and actually be able to sell them (if only Etsy.com weren't so pricey sometimes).  In all fairness, their prices are actually reasonable but my priority has to be keeping my family warm and fed.  There never seems to be any money left over after all that.  I wish it weren't always that way but then again, just one more reason we're moving.
So, what brought on all this pondering you might ask.  Well, I was watching Confessions of a Shopaholic.  And the main character spends the whole movie trying to learn the difference between cost and worth.  A big lesson for anyone, I think.  I honestly hope that I can get this one down someday.  Because, I definitely don't have it yet.
I can know how much something costs and the things that are worth most to me are not the most expensive, I have a different problem.  I attribute too much worth to things that cost me little to nothing at all.  I figure, if I can turn something that cost nothing to me into something of greater value, then it's worth all the world.
Now, this idea works great in Kingdom Theology (just to drop a little Christian-ese on you all).  Where all is gained when all is lost and the thing that should be worth all the world actually costs us nothing at all.  But how much can we expect this to be a part of our lives in the world? Does Kingdom Theology in this aspect have any practical and tangible repercussions on how we live our lives?  And, if so, how does one gather the strength to keep trying to let go when all the world tells us to hang on for dear life?
I'm trying to hard to throw away...and give away...and get rid of...and, and, and. But I'm just finding it so diffficult.  I've never been much of a person interested in having the newest and coolest and funnest toys.  I do enjoy it when I am able to have something nice, but to me it matters more that it was gotten at the best price possible and is it the product that will last the longest.  Not, the most horrible thing granted, but where do you draw the line between cost and worth?  At what point did it take more time finding the bargain than it was actually worth it? And when do you force yourself to draw the line and say, enough is enough?
Where that line is, is a total difference between Danny and I.  I'll push on the the dear end searching for a better deal, and Danny has no problem saying, "You know what it's worth the possible extra X amount of dollars to just not have to worry about it anymore." I don't think I have that switch.  Yet, I think that having such a switch would make this whole purging thing so much easier.  I'm at the point where all I can say is, "I don't know how to do this.  I really have no idea how this is done, someone needs to help me."  And of course admitting that I need help is not something that I am terribly good at either.